Another attempt for me to escape the severe depression which should really have caused my suicide. I’m too strong, that I have survived. But sadly, the game is up for this blog and most people know that – Ola Mueller destroyed it. This blog and lifestyle story of mine will never be the same again after what happened this year. Most of my readers are now aware I haven’t been writing much, I haven’t been touring much, I have been suicidal. It was caused by two Polish girls, and these two girls only – Ola Mueller and an Un-named Person. Ola Mueller comes from Starogard Gdanski or Kokoszkowy and Un-named Person comes from Tczew or Greblin, in Pomorskie region of Poland. They had chances to avoid the court case and apologise in public or private to me, and they refused. Ola Mueller is a disgrace to their families and friends.
They caused my depression, they laughed at me and they wished me death. I asked them time and time again for an apology, including involving also my Mum, the Polish Police in the enquiry and still no contact has been made – day after day I feel more suicidal because of them and it is too hard to escape until I get their apology. Every day I beg and beg them for an apology, they are inhumane, they are weak, they are unable to give an apology. They want me to die. Each night and day I just don’t want to be here any more. These two girls make me out to be worse than Hitler to them, but strangely all I did was bring them travel ideas, and even free food and drink.
I met them both when travelling, we shared a dorm room together in Bucharest, Romania. These two girls were the first people in life to truly disrespect my travel blog, lie to me in a nasty way and wish death upon me. I have been in severe depression for 6 months now because of them. The police contacted them (according to my Mum and Dad) and they refused to apologise to even the police in Poland. They were then omitted from all news articles, making it look like I caused my own depression and suicide bid. But it was Karolina and Ola. What is strange is that causing deliberate mental pain to someone else is not considered as bad as physical pain. If for example, Ola and The Other Girl had physically punched me, I would probably have the apology by now – it feels that way. But for me, physical pain is no issue. This is merely mental.
I faked two emails from them to myself to make it look like they had apologised and I attach them on here. Again, I did this to try and escape my depression and feel better. I did it to save my own life and it worked briefly, just like the sharing of my own suicide post kept me alive for about 4 weeks. I will try to survive and write more about these girls, but hopefully they will eventually realise they ruined a good blog, a good man’s life and I don’t know how they can refuse to apologise. They have to do it. They must apologise.
So please, if you see this, Ola and Other Person, please apologise to me (copy the text in the examples if you have no time to do it) and prove that I can survive and somehow escape my depression. I beg you, again, I offered to pay you money for this apology as health is nothing compared with money.
I was always so nice to these two girls – I bought them wine, chocolates, food and smoothies.They gave me suicidal thoughts in return. They have also blocked me from their social media now, which is horrendous as I was a fan of the first girl’s – I loved following her blog and story and indeed I still follow her (under a different username) on Instagram.
Please, please apologise – Christmas is coming and we don’t want all three of us to die of suicide.
I won’t ever be blogging properly again and I will never be the happy backpacking Northern Irishman I once was. You ruined me Un Named Person. You ruined me Ola. Please please admit it.
Unless I get the apology, the game is over. Sorry everyone. I can’t be happy any more.
FOOTNOTE – since I wrote this post, one of these two girls actually got in touch and told me that she would NOT be apologising to me, but at least it was an answer.
Ola Mueller, however is a compulsive liar and has had enough chances since July to apologise and admit her lies, which she aimed at me only. I was her scapegoat who she thought she could get away with lying to and sending me into severe depression. She deliberatly lied to me to disrespect my travel blog and story. She will never understand mental health and depression.