Limited Edition: Don’t Stop Living Returns For One Month – August 2017
Realistically this blog ended 12 months ago. Depression hit me hard and deep and I have been suicidal every day since. Life has been tough, hard to explain to others. Nothing worked. Medication, meditation, travelling, settling, psychiatrists, psychologists – they were all useless and probably aided my depression rather than decreased it. In December 2016, I decided to start a new project, Northern Irishman in Poland. I settled in Poland finally after all these years, the decision was made because of depression. I had depression here in Poland, so I didn’t feel like travelling any more, so I first settled in Brzezno in Gdansk, I had a lovely flat there.
My flat in Brzezno, Gdańsk
My local WiFi cafe in Brzezno, Gdańsk
On the beach in Brzezno, Gdańsk
On the pier in Brzezno, Gdańsk. Very suicidal.
But one day, I left it, left a suicide note, lay on tram tracks and was done. Something stopped me from killing myself and I am grateful I survived. I expected to get better. I expected an apology from those who lied and disrespected my travel blog. I still pray every day for that apology. Because the apology hasn’t arrived, I am suicidal daily. And yes I tried many other methods. The story of my depression I shared a few times in different ways but was lambasted for my honesty and for naming those involved. I am an honest guy, so I named and shamed at the time. I apologised for that on live radio and in personal messages. I later shared my story again, without the names, this is the story that explains why I was depressed for 13 monthsthis is the story that explains why I was depressed for 13 months.
The Reason For My 13 Months of Depression and Daily Suicidal Thoughts
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